My Love

​I would have to say that my mom has made the biggest impact on my life. I believe this is true because without her I wouldn’t know a lot of things that I know now. My father isn’t in my life, well I mean he tries to but I won’t let that happen because of the choices he decided to make that caused my mom to make ignorant decisions that lead to losing us. My mom actually made better choices and got her life together just to get her children back. As of right now, my mom has had us for a total of 8 years. She got us back when I was about 7 years old. My childhood wasn’t the best, but my mom is putting effort into giving all of us a life we should’ve had from the beginning. I don’t blame my mom for the choices she made because no one is flawless. I mean yeah I’m upset for her choosing to do pessimistic things instead of being here for us because my dad wasn’t in the right state of mind to, but everyone goes through a rough time at least once in their life. I’m so thankful for her switching her whole life around to show us what’s the right thing to do, and what isn’t some of the best decisions to make. The only reason why I believe the things my mom says is because she also didn’t have the best childhood either. I can tell that my mom tries really hard just to satisfy us because I know she doesn’t want us to have the type of life she had when she was younger. My grandma basically didn’t even want my mom when she was younger so my mom went to my aunt and she raised her. I seen my aunt as my grandmother because she did an affirmative thing to raise someone that wasn’t even hers. But, in the year of 2013 “ Mama Jessie” was no longer with us. One of the best women alive was chosen to go somewhere she really deserved to be, all the good she had done for everyone finally returned back to her.
When she passed away I know it was a really hard time my mother had to go through. We lived in Iowa at the time and my mom wasn’t able to buy an airplane ticket to fly back out to California, so my mom also had to miss out on the funeral. Back to my mom, I don’t think I’d be able to see my mom as a negative collision. Although us as a family went through some bad times, it’s all better now because my mom made herself so much stronger somehow, not only for herself but for her children too. I’ve noticed that my mom is very dedicated on giving us a life she also should’ve had herself. She’s been working hard to earn the title of an assistant manager and finally got it! I’m so happy she finally got it because she’s worked really hard for it, but at the same time I was sad she got it because that meant she had to leave us for 2 whole weeks, and she left the day before my birthday, so she wasn’t out here to celebrate with me. She’s still not out here, she don’t come back until February 7th so that makes me very excited because knowing that she’s finally coming back makes me very happy to see her. In my opinion I think 2 weeks is a long time.
Over these past few years my mom has taught me some things her mom chose not to teach her. Some of the things she has taught me and or is currently teaching me have some negative and some positive effects with it. I know for a fact I’m not the best person in the world but my mom taught me that if you’re there for someone when they really need it, some good will come back to you. I just look at my mom at the most randomest times and I thank the lord to have her in my life because if I didn’t I wouldn’t know what to do with myself. So with all this being said I just wanna thank my mom and say, “I love you, and thank you for everything.”

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