Dear Mom, How do you know??

​ Dear Mom,
How do you know what I've been through if you were never here.
How do you know any of my problems if you were never near.
You left a scar in my heart, I began to fall apart, I should've known I wasn’t going to have a mom at the start.
I remember back when I was in first grade you tried coming back into my life, but I refused to meet you and every time I tried thinking of you it hurt like I was getting stabbed by a knife.
I know that you really love me because i’m your son, but I thought you were trying to meet me just for the fun.
I used to wait for you to come even though it made me look dumb
Mom why did you have to leave me when you were the one I needed the most.  All this time you were gone I started thinking that you were a ghost. I didn’t have a mom who would teach me from right or wrong.  I only had a mom who was gone.  You could have been my best friend till the end.  Most families are a mixture of fruits, but we couldn’t even blend.  What were you thinking when you left me?  Was it me or was it you?  You were never here to tell me, so who would’ve known.  Do you even have a mom who loves you?  Do you even have a mom who cares?  That's what people ask me.  But all I say was she was never there. When I was in 6th grade you went to court so you can see me.  I didn’t want to meet you cause all I know about you is you were the women who planned to leave me.  You never took care of me.  I was all alone in this empty home.
Trying to either find a mom or a similar clone.  But guess what now i’m all grown. Now can you please just leave me alone.
Sincerely,
S.S

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